mixedupmadness

love is love no matter what

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Juniper tree by mixedupmadness, literature

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Shaking by mixedupmadness, literature

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Shaking

My hands shaking Body aching My chest is tight My breath quick and rushed You pull me close just in time for the rush Fear rushing You gripping me Holding me together Trying to keep me from breaking This is all routine Panic attacks are a frequent occourance with me This is routine Yet you stay with me No matter how much a part of me I'd understand if u left I'm to much to handle I know So if your gonna leave. Go And save me some pain No longer in it for the gain

White rooms by mixedupmadness, literature

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This love by mixedupmadness, literature

sing me to sleep by mixedupmadness, literature

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This love by mixedupmadness, literature

sing me to sleep by mixedupmadness, literature

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could i trust you? by Sparkey38, journal

could i trust you?

Dec 30, 2012

You asked me, Who has your key? What Key? The key to your heart I looked away &&& When I didn't respond, You asked me Can I have the key? But when I still was quiet, And wouldn't look at you, Please.. I really want to have it.. The truth is, I no longer hold the key. I've trusted so many people with it, Too many. I don't have it. Don't know where it went. I've given it to so many people who have Unlocked my heart Just to hurt me. I don't have a key to give you. I'm sorry. But.. If I did, could I trust you, To hold it safe? Close to your heart, Where no harm could come of it? Could I trust you, Not t

what would you do? by Sparkey38, journal

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Shade Of Blue by SurvivingNights, literature

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Shade Of Blue

Shade Of Blue From a deep slumber... I have awoken To this cruel color... That leaves me haunted My eyes scream As I opened the door to my soul Those thoughts of you start to bleed Reminding me that you're just a person I used to know - A dark ocean blue that I once knew Leaked through my window It matched this mood Amplifying the sorrow Sparking negative energy It's the secret source of my core The only element allowing me- To survive another day, once more Without a care I can endure Without a prayer I push forward So let this hue shower With extreme hatred Force the nostalgia to devour And let my heart remain powerless - Wishing I was

Let Me Carry You by vsyo-vremya, literature

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Let Me Carry You

Hush said the angel Don't be lonely anymore I'm here right beside you Like so many times before Time and again I'll be here to fill your heart Tonight I'm gonna show you We're never far apart Hush said the angel You can tell me like it is 'Cos I'm not here to judge you All I offer you is this Time and again I'll be here to fill your dreams Tonight I'm gonna show you Love is closer than it seems Let me carry you Let me be the one Let me carry you I can be the one Let me care for you I can heal the pain until it's gone Let me carry you so you can carry on Let me carry you so you can carry on

What Do You Want? by Nivys, literature

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What Do You Want?

What do you want from me? Sometimes I wonder if you Mean the things you tell me Or if it's just a cover up For when you tell me to Shut the fuck up Do you really want me here? When we're talking about our kids You hold me in your arms and Say you'll never let me go But then when we're alone I can feel the disdain from Your eyes burning through me You know what makes me tick But you also know to love me Sometimes I wish you'll Push me for the last time So I have a reason to storm out Of our guilty little house I'm also too afraid to leave I know you'll find me No matter how far I run Maybe if I don't cower away From t

Why do you? by Sparkey38, journal

Why do you?

Dec 23, 2012

She was never there Never Left alone Always alone In the dark I tried to speak about Her To explain How important Tried to explain She was She is Special Amazing Every aspect Of her Is perfect I tried to Explain That I care for her That I love her But she left No She never stopped Never looked Never loved Me The way I do Her if she was never really there, then why are you holding onto her so strongly? Because I need her I love her I care for her So deeply So purely So strongly I couldn't leave her Never I just I couldn't Even if she refuses to talk to you? I can't help it I've latched onto her

I give you my word by MyLoveForYouEternity, literature

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I give you my word

You're so beautiful and I will always mean it You made my heart race when I first Met you I've loved you for awhile but was afraid to show you You're still my crush and I will always care about you I will always be here for you through the worse and the best times Cause it is true to me that I fell for you the longest You're amazing eyes and the lovestruck smile I will always love you even if we aren't together You're an amazing girl and I hope you're future is wonderful I give you my word that I will always be here for you

About mixedupmadness

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Artist // Hobbyist // Photography

Apr 15
United States
Deviant for 11 years
She / Her

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My Bio

hi im kadin this is me starting over from scratch I'm gay taken and getting older everyday
ps i cant spell and my grammar is very faulty just like me

my favorite quote ohana means family family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten-stitch

Favourite Visual Artist

tc christianson

Favourite Movies

hunger games trilogy twilight triliogy tommy boy lady and the tramp (im obviously tramp) lion king and buck

Favourite TV Shows

rizzoli and isles glee true blood adventure time

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

lady gaga she is my idol my chemical romance black veil brides

Favourite Books

hunger games go ask alice whose gonna tell my brother a lot more

Favourite Writers

stephinie meyer oscar wilde edgar allan poe

Favourite Games

red dead redemption

Favourite Gaming Platform

x box

Tools of the Trade

nikon computer and pencils and paper

Other Interests

horse back riding and training abused horses

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mixedupmadness

Dec 26, 2012

Random life update

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I'm still alive merry Christmas btw and or happy holidays which ever you prefer I'm sober yay Allie well technically yay Emma.  Uhh new phone finally cutting hair off Thursday got my ears pierced and am gonna start stretching yay uhh that's it bye :)

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mixedupmadness

Dec 26, 2012

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mixedupmadness

Dec 13, 2012

Life update

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I have a woman her names Emma she's perfect in every way I'm old I'm living at home again I'm happy I'm healing Im in GSA I comfortable I'm a lesi I'm out to more people I'm loved

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shayminlover492

Jan 8, 2013

SORRY BUT I'M DELETING YOU FROM MY LIFE! (clicks delete!) LOADING... ▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓▓ 99%................................ ERROR! It is impossible to delete our friendship You mean so much to me! [[Post this to 1O people's walls who you never want to lose. If you get 3 back, you're an amazing friend.